I also should have been more wiser to Gods plans. I always dreamt that I would be married by 24 years of age, like my mother but had to wait until I was 29. I had planned on getting to know my boyfriend / fiancé for at least two years before marring yet was engaged by 6 months and marred in less than two years. Ideally I had wanted to spend a little over two years enjoying our young newlywed years before getting pregnant but then my biological clock kicked in and we decided to begin looking after our first anniversary.
To be honest I began to worry when I calculated the fact that I would be turning 30 soon and we wanted at least 3 kids. So with the minimum of two years between each child that meant that I would be almost forty by the time we had our last baby! YIKES!!! (Thats also not calculating any complications / miscarriages). So I suggested we start trying at 6 months, which my husband wisely pushed to 8 months, then a year.
Thanks to the Lord, I listened his decision and trusted in the Lord's will. Yet when my husband pushed the date from April to June I agreed but said that it would be our last postponement! So now that I felt assured and more comfortable with our decision; I distracted my "baby fever" with strengthening our relationship, enjoying holidays, my last year at work, preparing my house and checking off all the things we wanted to do before the baby arrived. I began this blog and casually prepared a pregnancy Pinterest account.
Everyone around me was getting pregnant. Both my and my husbands Facebook accounts were bombarded with babies! Yet I waited until May to bring it up to my husband and to openly begin speaking to others of our intentions (just within a selective group of close friends & family).
It was at this moment when my husband and I got stuck. I had begun taking folic acid, stepped up my workout routine & schedule, got off birth control in February etc. etc... Yet my husband tried to postpone the baby conception once more for august! On top of that, he also gave me seven requirements before we would begin:
1. To be off birth control for at least 3 months, and he even tried to extend it to 6 months after reading an article online! I flipped out and reminded him that by June I would meet the 3 month requirement.
2. To go to the dentist and remove some old cavities because of infection; so I'm doing so.
3. Take antibiotics for intestinal bacteria / parasites with him for 14 days; and we're half way through that.
4. Our marriage has to be stable. Check! We are blessed to have been in a honeymoon phase fore months now, thanks to the Lords great help!
5. Do a detox / cleanse. That one I got a bit upset with him about because we have been on an organic mostly gluten free diet for over a year now and we practically have become vegetarians! I did so mostly for him and to control my weight/health, so don't want to restrict myself even more! So that's a no to that one!
6. Let a doctor examine our blood work; which I am excited about and going to do so after we're done with the antibiotic treatment were on.
7. I saved the best for last: Being that he works in a hospital, his physician co-workers recommend that I get a colonoscopy!
Two years ago I had a cystic tumor on my colon along with colitis. The tumor was none-cancerous and was surgically removed. Also, with our drastic change of diet, my colitis symptoms have disappeared! My doctors advised me that after a year or two my wounds would be healed enough to give birth and that I would need a colonoscopy after three years not two! Yet I must be responsible and cautious. My body won't loner be just mine, but a miraculous incubator for our future baby and I must secure the chances of any preventable problems that might be lurking.
Some of you might have sensed a theme repeating itself through out this post. Worry and anxiety are a huge and normal part of pregnancy, but one must be careful not to let it grow out of control to where it becomes sinful or even affect the baby. So we must be proactive in watching out for any signs of unneeded and premature worry / anxiety leaving all our doubt and concern in God's capable hands. So in a future blog I will detail the course of action that I am beginning and will hopefully continue to take with my propensity towards worry.
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